Noche Boche

Thy Self,

It's been a tough ride to start with.

As the new year will come, wish for the inner peace in an electric silence. 

Keep on ignoring people who hurts you from within, who treats your back as a voicemail. They always have something to say to/about you but not right in your face. Think that they were never brave enough to hurt you in your face so they got your back. 

Eliminate your 'friends' whom you thought they were because they never were from the start. They are the ones who kept you down throughout the long run, secretly hiding their real 'identities', deceiving you through helping you out. Instead, thank the real ones for being quiet the whole time, watching you still, picking you up when you're broken even without the use of words. Be sorry for yourself for now, you ignored them as they care for you.

Rest your fragile heart this time. People who gave you shit are just plain shits themselves. That's why they pass on their shitty-ness because they can't find pleasant things within them. They don't deserve your time, just kill them with your genuine kindness (if you desire). Don't pay them back with your bitterness, or else, everything, including you, would become plain shits to conclude.

Forgive the people who can't move on, those people who can't accept that it's truly your time to be happy. Moreover, we all deserve to be happy. Some people are just plain greedy, they kill someone else's happiness just to be happy for themselves again. Don't be like them, they are just selfish who doesn't know the real meaning of happiness in the first place. Just wish that person to find own happiness so that someone can truly move on, rather than homewrecking. And oh, forget about the 'homewrecking' word I said, that's just a rude term to say. Just don't let history repeat itself. Just wish happiness for everybody. 

Don't fight with an elderly, or anyone who's elder than you. Yes, I know it's not proper to call someone like that especially when you respect that someone so much. But her tactlessness made you lose your respect for her but choose to be respectful still. Keep in mind that whatever happens, it's not good to see someone older fighting with a kid, seeing the older one brawling like a kid wherein the kid just stays cool. So in short, keep your cool (and respect), kid. :)

Learn how to fight back this time. From this year's show, I want more. I want more bitchiness (KIDDING). No, not bitchiness. Fight  for what is right especially when you know what is right, and that you are right. Be not afraid on what to say. Sometimes, you have to blurt it out, not tactlessly. But in a way that you keep your lungs from giving out from the words you tend not to say.

Lastly, love the person who really deserves to be loved. He's been waiting up for the long time, trying to be understood but left alone most of the time. Just don't be clumsy or you'll scare that person off. To be safe, love everybody, even those who hurt you. It's a pain on the chest, I know, but it's the smallest thing (but greatest thing and most humane) to do.

PS. Let God be with you always, for the right timing for everything. :) Hay. Pain is beauty and beauty is life. Ansarap mabuhay. :) Keep your 2012 stress-free! 

Sincerely,

Little Miss Sunshine Before 2011 Made You a Bitch

[Don't you miss your old self?]